I want to thank you all for all the compassionate and kind words. It never ceases to amaze me how many wonderful friends I have as a result of knitting. You have been so kind and reassuring and I am very grateful. Not only have I gotten a lot of wonderful messages but have also had the opportunity to speak with some of you on the phone. Thanks Dru and LB!!
I am sure many of you can imagine what it was like to tell Emily about Arwen. She is 11 and was only 5 when Arwen became a part of our family so in a way they kinda grew up together. Arwen has always slept in Emily's room and has been her assurance that there are no Boogey men in the closet. She was my buddy all day and Emily's bodyguard at night (not to tough but she would bark). So after Arwen's passing Emily was as devastated as I was, so when she asked if we could find a new puppy I got right on it. Honestly I have to admit that I really didn't have the heart for it. The idea of going to look at a new puppy just didn't appeal to me at all. Emily's heart was breaking and all I could do was try to find a way to mend it a little. I agreed to take her to see puppies the next morning and yes I let her skip school, we both knew that she would only have spent the day crying anyway.
The next morning dawned and I woke up when I thought I heard Arwen bark. That kicked off my first spell of crying that morning. I got on the computer and saw that LB had been on and I knew she of all people would understand what I was feeling (I know that many of you would have also now). Druanna had been my shoulder the night before (Thank YOU) and now I called LB. She listened to me cry and talk about all I was missing and how awful my last 3 weeks had been. After I had cried and talked she said "Arwen will send you a new puppy to help you heal, and she will probably climb right up on your shoulders just like Arwen always did". Sorry LB but I really didn't take that to heart and thought it would never ever happen.
Soon it was time for Emily and I to leave and take the 2 hour drive to look at puppies. Two hours thinking and talking about Arwen. We shared many tears, talked about what a wonderful dog she was and how we will always miss her. Told each other stories about Arwen that we hadn't shared with each other before. We laughed, cried and just talked, one of those times I will never forget.
Originally we were supposed to be looking at 4 puppies but 2 had already gone to homes so there were only two left. When we first saw the puppies of course Emily was beside herself with excitement. She made her choice very quickly and 'Bella' was in her arms and and nuzzling against her neck within seconds, very fast friends. Bella's tail was wagging and Emily had a huge smile on her face. We put the other puppy back in it's cage and she immediately began to cry, I just had to get her back out. I took her and sat down in the car while I filled out some paperwork. Within seconds she had climbed up to my shoulder and settled herself down right around my neck JUST like Arwen had always done. I immediately began to cry....again. It was just like LB had said, I couldn't believe it, this little white puffball had gotten right into my heart with a wag of her tail and a simple snuggle around my neck. I called my poor husband with tears streaming down my face and told him how Emily had picked the Bella but this little girl had picked me. Poor guy not only had he lost his pet too but now here I was blubbering on the phone about getting 2 puppies, dirty pool my Dad told me later. It really wasn't at all fair to him, thank goodness he loves me so much.
Introducing Bella and Rosie. They are a real joy to have in the house and Rosie is very much like my Arwen. She loves to ride on my shoulders and is quickly becoming my shadow. They are both very happy and loving little girls. Although I truly did not think I was ready for a puppy I am very happy that I have them.